讨厌你的离去让我变得如此孱弱，犹如竖在平地沙丘上的一株仙人掌抽搐它的根茎奋力地接近它的水源无疾而终后身心俱疲的瘪软。十一兄希望胖头好好享受生活，别独自一人胡思乱想，但～请谁来帮我摆正我的脑袋？

 

唔～不想说话了，也没人说话了，不想接电话，害怕让人听出冷漠，不想回短信，那是漫无目的的应付。

 

每天在大树下前行，不时纳闷在万物复苏的早春缘何不断飘洒枯黄的落叶，其中还会夹杂着从绿到红的不间断层次变化。“风吹落叶拂满面，嬗变无端增悲凉。”忽而灵感突至，胡诌了一句，就在这种春秋倒置中我的心绪也变幻无常。越走越远，从满地枯叶的街面漫步至荒芜人烟的悬崖边，在狂风飞舞的天旋地转里我努力地凝视着山谷内倒挂的一颗树，原来我已处在边缘的边缘。.....。

 

我的世界在你面前崩塌^^^^^^^无影～

 

不知道为什么，特想找个听英式的女朋友。我要去寻找我的世界末日女朋友了，所以···

 

暂别～

 

 

                       my  heart  belOngs  2  U 

                  

                                it  iS  trUe ！ 

In a haze, a stormy haze
I’ll be round, I’ll be loving you, always
Always

Here I am and I'll take my time
Here I am and I’ll wait in line, always
Always

Do you feel like a chain store?
Practically floored
One of many zeros
Kicked around bored
Your ears are full but your empty
Holding out your heart
To people who never really
Care how you are

So give me Coffee and TV
History
I've seen so much
I'm goin blind
And i'm braindead virtually
Sociability
It's hard enough for me
Take me away from this big bad world
And agree to marry me
So we can start all over again

Do you go to the country
It isn't very far
There's people there who will hurt you
Cos of who you are

Your ears are full of the language
There's wisdom there you're sure
'Til the words start slurring
And you can't find the door

So give me Coffee and TV
History
I've seen so much
I'm goin blind
And i'm braindead virtually
Sociability
It's hard enough for me
Take me away from this big bad world
And agree to marry me
So we can start all over again

every hour, every day
isn't nature denied?
in a world where it rains
you're the sun in the sky

but i can't bear to see you
'cos i can't bear the pain
and i can't heal the wounds
'cos i still can't explain

why i feel like an alien
not part of the human race
when my heart wants to burst
at the sight of your face
i feel like i'm suffering
from a beautiful disease
when your sad pretty smile
brings me down to my knees

such a simple thing
it should be such a simple thing

you can call me confused
all that i can confess
is i can't come to terms
settle for something less
will i feel this emotion
till the day that i die?
and go to my grave
still wondering why

i feel like an alien...

This is not a love song

Happy to have
Not to have not
Big business is
Very wise
I'm crossing over into
Enter prize

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

I'm adaptable
And I like my role
I'm getting better and better
And I have a new goal
I'm changing my ways
Where money applies
This is not a love song

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

I'm going over to the over side
I'm happy to have
Not to have not
Big business is
Very wise
I'm inside free
Enterprise

This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song
This is not a love song

Not television
Behind the curtain
Out of the cupboard
You take the first train
Into the big world
Are you ready to grab the candle
Not television

原先溃烂成疾的思念流淌在绮丽橙黄亮发 哥特式烟熏眼眶 叼烟过界鲜红唇 上～

我 还是喜欢她的

在夏天还没结束 她还没成为我女朋友的时候

额 一直稀饭她哒

在夏季刚开始 她成为额们家后爷滴时候

 

后来 它扩散了 蔓延了

你知道 内素毒素

有一种叫做依恋哒东西会深入骨髓

久久8能痊愈

滴答滴答。…………。

似水流年中～

额会忘记你肥肠嘴下露出全部牙齿的笑容

流年似水中～

额将忘却你大宝SOD蜜光滑脸蛋上的板寸头

骨碌骨碌。…………。

光阴轮转里～

额再也看不到内个帮额拿水壶扭动被银笑称丰满身材哒你

轮转光阴里～

额再也抓不住在额面前摇曳胖嘟嘟肥硕大手臂揶揄额滴你

我～

不是很久没哭过了，只是很久没有为了别人而哭过了，偶尔会因为小感动或是大烦躁，鼻上的皮肤敏感地红一下，泪水在虹膜前转一圈，睫毛上留下可怜的一小滴，擤擤鼻子没事儿了。可是今天你走了之后，当我不得不意识到每天很自然地会出现的你今后也会很自然地消失的时候，泪汇聚成一颗大水珠从右眼滚落，啪嗒啪嗒，我慌然奔进卫生间，无法阻止这突如其来的悲伤，就这样一个人躲在臭烘烘的厕所宣泄我的幽怨，任性倾倒泪水，也肆意倾倒思绪，短短的三个月一时间同时从眼前从耳中喷射而出，我怎么能习惯再也听不见你爽朗的笑声？我怎么能习惯没人叫我“越姐”？我怎么能习惯做失去博士的阿拉蕾？我怎么能习惯？！。.....。

胜哥～！

大胜哥～！

大胜胜哥哥～！

大胖胖胜胜哥哥～！

回来～

回来骂额傻B 傻鸟甚至傻diao～

回来训斥额 你怎么那么笨！ 自己想！ 不告诉你！

回来做额口中内个简单快乐或许隐藏鸟些许愁苦滴居家好男银～

 

如果内真素额所猜测哒额滴错～

额将会一辈子活在自责中～

偿还8鸟也救赎8鸟～

额承认额擅长煽情

也承认额矫情鸟

但～

miSsmisSmiss come of my heart~~~~~miSS是过错也是思念······

 

生活中会有淡忘过去的习惯，因为过得太匆忙无暇留恋抑或它们空洞乏味，我就是这样每日波澜不惊地重复，以至再无一件事儿能唤起我的存在感，坐在电脑前敲打键盘有强烈到不能抑止的幻觉。

 

现在。真的。一切都糟糕透了。我就这样适时地因为毫无进展而抱怨，继而在抱怨中又度过没有进展的一天，周而复始，循环不息。

 

某些关乎未来的重要的事情，我 不想做，仅仅因为我不想，我就随意将它们延迟了，后果，我没想过。某些被我一再挂在嘴边的人，冷 掉了，仅仅因为我埋进了沉寂的泥土，我就与他们隔离了，曾经，我没忆过。我迅疾地看完了最后一本harry·potter，那又怎样？我梦见了胖胖的大胜哥肥硕的大膀子，那又如何？我想我失去了或即将失去……他们。虚拟的。我最珍视的他们。

 

当我口吐自认为现实到老道掉渣的话语时，内心鄙视自己的狂热的火焰灼烧着舌根，试图吞噬言不由衷的邪恶。SO。NOW！秉持着仁慈之心祝福你们的我 can not just say stop，I must say over！YES。OVER！Say over to the realism. Say over to my life.眼见你们虚假的幸福 我，哭笑不得，所以请继续假装地维持 让我，僵硬地面无表情。